Lost Wings

Have not been blogging for days.. well, it's weekend, hence im busy with my bf, no time for updating my blog. anyway not very much ppl will c it! ><

Hmm.. my bf is hm too today n it will be the same for the rst of the day cos he is having his mc covered till almost end of the month. Followed by that will be his clearance of his leave le.. n then. ORD lo! thats wat he always say.. He is really looking forward to his last day in camp. hope the days after that is wat something he wants. Good luck to u dear.

My holiday is ending, nxt month 13th i'll hv to start schooling again. im quite looking forward, at least my days r occupied with things n hav time for myself. Hmm.. Do i sound weird? I dun know wat am i thinking.. I find im being too dependent to my bf n thats not wat i wan n like. I wan to be independent n free, all i ask for is these. Well, will i be able to "retrieve" it? Ya, retrieve, i used to have it, but its gone rite now. Im as gd as a helpless kitten, waiting for someone to feed my needs, take care of me if im ill n handle my accomodation. Am i jus nxt to a good-for-nothing? I guess so. =(

I gonna look for a hou lu(another way) for myself now, cos if one day i gonna depend on my own, i gotto be financially independent.

How should i put it to him? Will he understand? Will he be able to take it? Will he "really" know wat is best for me? Please let me hav my way. I dun wan my wings to be taken away. =(