Today.... supposed to be a normal or ordinary day, but, something just pissed me up. No mood. very impatient, very easy-irritated now. Not becos of wat visits me every month, definitely not, but someone who in fact is very closed to me! F***! thats the worst thing.

I M SUPER PISSED NOW!!!!!!!!

Damn!!! I would not say wat happen, cos i dun wish anyone to know. Argh!!!! I jus wan to vent it out! F***! WHO CAN SAVE ME???? ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im turning mad, wat happened today did not entirely cause me to wat i am today. Things pile up, emotion accumulated, memories made, tolerance diminishing. KAN! on the whole, I.AM.PISSED.

Am i being petty? Am i being impatiant? IDK! i only know that, i am human, i could see, hear, feel, sense and get angry! Y cant i? I am wat i am, do i look like i care wat u think? Ya, maybe i am speaking in frustration now, but i am clear at my emotion. i know y i behave like this. Sometimes woman tends to recall things easily when they r mad, really! At least i am. Whenever i am angry, i rmb things, when i rmb, i got disheartened, when i got disheartened, i am fumed becos i can feel my emotion sways. Unrealistic, madness, hopeless...

Shit, i hate myself when i am feeling like this, i felt so childish, so evil, so idiotic. 白痴一个. I know watever i say is useless, damn i hate this, powerless. Dun push me too far or i will not show sympathy at all.